i woke up late. and there's lunch at Siglap, which is like hours away from my place. most people are already there, Aqil, Izzat, Yazid and the VIP Val. well i don't know if i would be able to make it at all. i need to study...

i realize i've been missing out on a lot of stuff, like classes, and CCAs... well i kind of don't like math so yeah, stats is gonna be a gone case unless i mug now. it's just that... i can't bring myself to study...

and it seems like i've lost passion for CCAs... i still don't know what i really am interested in now... i thought floorball was a sure thing. but i guess only if Stanley was here and we joined together... and students' council was in and out of my mind from time to time... and the united nations club seems a bit too serious for my liking...

i met a friend the other day who got some funding for an OCIP. i was like, how could i have missed out on that as well? i mean, everything seems to slip out of my reach without me even realizing they are there...

and it doesn't help that i'm not staying with my friends anymore... i miss the good old days, when i could talk endlessly to roommates and floormates about anything, even during exam times... i miss the time at Tampines, when i didn't have to fold my clothes if i was too tired... people were always nice enough to help each other...

some one told me i'd pull through, like i always have. i admit that i always have, no matter how hard it seems at first. but the reason for that is always that i have people around me who unknowingly support me along my way... this time, it is extremely tough. not that there's no one around... i guess i'm still overwhelmed by the drastic change... i need some time to adapt.

c'est la vie... :)

Michelle says the scholarship should motivate me to study. yeah, kind of. just that i still haven't secured it. gotta get another surety to come on board.

at last i cried :)

not because mau mau says i'm a sensitive new age guy... but because i'm really sad...